"Propane nightmares"

The dark substance is trying to take over me all over again.

It feels so much more tempting than ever before. Now that I can use this lightlessness as my deadliest and most devouring strength.

Now that everything in my life is moving forward

so


fast.

"Solid gold, fresh young face"

"The word 'hurricane' is the name given to nature's strongest storm.
A hurricane occurs when high pressure and low pressure masses of air come in contact with one another.

There is often a significant difference in temperature between the two masses.
One mass is warm, while the other is cold.
The warmer air rises, and the cooler air falls.
Likewise, the low pressure area slides down the sides of the high pressure area.

They swirl in and around one another, creating the beginnings of the storm."

"I'm only part awake"

Every person in my life is a light of their own shade: they guide me to follow the safest and easiest path of life.

I have no clear cause to stray but the darkness outside the lit and guarded pathway tempts me. It could both save and damn me, and it definitely could take me deep inside my own oceans of sorrow and solutions for ending the pain of numbness.

Music today:
The Mars Volta Since we've been wrong

"Sweet passion"

In a world consistent with only three different shades of grey, you always enter the room in full-blown technicolour.

"The love you give is enough to end my fears"

"You gave your body to the lonely"

Meet me at the Seer's Tower when it rains. When you don't recognize your shoulder blades and your heart decides not to react on any pain.


My bed is the deepest grave and there I go to sleep alone. After all, letting go was the easy part.
Harder times are every second after it.

"Drive a faster car"

I once knew a man whom I thought could or would never hurt me.

Then he opened up my heart with his bare hands.
He said that he couldn't handle the fact that my heart was the brother of his heart, the other half long lost. He said that my whole passive existence in his life felt too intimate. Then he set my whole heart on fire, turned his back on me and walked away.



The thing he doesn't know about twins is that we all burn. And that is why he keeps having nightmares about drowning in the waters of unreachable silver, gold and salvation.