"Strangers making the most of the dark"

It is almost humiliating how my sudden physical weakness has made me miss you and think of you this bad.

I hate myself for forcing myself to be cold and ignorant towards you, acting like I'm doing so much better without you when the truth is that not contacting you is eating me alive. I'm sorry if I've given you the impression that I couldn't care less about you or your well-being because I do. I absolutely do.

Not a single day has gone by that I hadn't thought of you or loved you or wished you all the best and happiness and success of this world, and every world I could in my powers to lay beneath your feet.

"Burning through my darkest night"

Please, someone, please please please help me to get out of this. I'm blinded by everything in my life, by my own joie de vivre and naivity, and I simply cannot recognize a demon coming my way. And he most certainly is here.


"The heaviest of burdens is simultaneously an image of life's most intense fulfillment."

Music today:
Pendulum
Thom Yorke
The Knife

"Like a boxer prepared before a fight"

Everything must get worse to become better, and the night is the darkest just before the dawn. I hope this is that moment.

Music today:
Requiem For A Dream soundtrack

"And life is wine"

A hop, skip and a week away.


Why do I feel like my whole life as I know it will draw its last breath right there? I still do have time, we still have time. But there are places and phases in life where they know nothing about clocks.

It's been hell of a ride but I've enjoyed every curve and bump of it.

"You sh-sh-shock my bones"

My heart is a full room but it feels like the loneliest place in the world when you're gone.

Music today:
Kings of Leon
Volbeat

"Sense and sensibility"

"The pain of a broken heart is, ultimately, a beautiful thing to have known."
- Author Stephen Armstrong about the death of his first love author Melissa Nathan

Music today:
Tegan and Sara Nineteen

"Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun"

E: And so the lion fell in love with the lamb.
B: What a stupid lamb.
E: What a sick, masochistic lion.