Wednesday, 17 February 2010

"De Vita Decedere"

Even the loss of something very small and undefined can cut a small hole in your heart. And the defined things you'll be also forced to say permanent goodbyes to bring a great sadness.

Suddenly it's everything around you, all the years gone by. Everything stops, at least you hope for everything to stop just for a while so that you could feel very sad for some time without people expecting you to do anything. Without people expecting you to explain, without people noticing your grief and tears.

We know there will be a tomorrow and better days, beautiful days, but not today. Today we would like to have our sad day, and remember the small, big, undefined and very well defined things we have lost.

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

"Neon tiger"

I miss summer, the heat. Even the heavy rainfalls and bright nights.



This cold, windy season of snow is trapping us all inside. In buildings and in ourselves. There is no escape.

Monday, 4 January 2010

"Softly down to sleep"





It's a good thing that you came along with me. Don't stop inspiring me.

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

"Some things last"

I finally watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button".

What a way to start ending this year. And what a year it has been...

Monday, 7 December 2009

"Midnight Cowboy"

Those were the steps I needed to take in order to get right here where I am now.


Restarting myself and my engines was the wisest move I could have made. Today I'm whole again.

Monday, 23 November 2009

"Flashback"

Everything around me seems to paralyze me.

I'm seized by the choices I have to make in my life in order to have a life.


Am I destined to feel this void, day after day after day after day?

Friday, 6 November 2009

"Shine on me"

There is a place called Nangijala. Well, it's called Nangijala because I like the name. I didn't come up with it on my own; originally it was the home of the late Brother Lionheart but now it is this place that I'm about to tell you.

In Nangijala, there is never too cold and never too hot. Clouds in the sky swirl and swift and change, and they are painted with the colours of sunset. Right above you, you might spot a few twinkling stars.

The grass is warm and soft, never dirty. The wind is pleasant and the waves of the ocean are calm. Wherever you want to lay your head, you can.

This is my secret place. This is where I go when I want to take a breath, when I want to let go of everything in this cold, silly world and feel like there still are some good things worth fighting for.

For a long time, I only knew about the existence of this place. I had never been there. I only had dreams about it.
On the last day of summer, however, I finally got there. All I had to do was to turn around from the direction I was heading towards and there I was. There he was.
And right at that moment, he had me at hello.