"This is getting old and so are you"

So many things have happened this year. I must say, none of them has been particularly good... I have learned within these experiences that I'm living someone else's life, not my own. I'm not happy with my life as it is now. I should be very grateful for many things but it feels like I'm stealing those things from someone who would actually want them but cannot now have them because I'm there.

Blah blah blah.

Hurry up summer.

"De Vita Decedere"

Even the loss of something very small and undefined can cut a small hole in your heart. And the defined things you'll be also forced to say permanent goodbyes to bring a great sadness.

Suddenly it's everything around you, all the years gone by. Everything stops, at least you hope for everything to stop just for a while so that you could feel very sad for some time without people expecting you to do anything. Without people expecting you to explain, without people noticing your grief and tears.

We know there will be a tomorrow and better days, beautiful days, but not today. Today we would like to have our sad day, and remember the small, big, undefined and very well defined things we have lost.

"Neon tiger"

I miss summer, the heat. Even the heavy rainfalls and bright nights.



This cold, windy season of snow is trapping us all inside. In buildings and in ourselves. There is no escape.

"Softly down to sleep"

It's a good thing that you came along with me. Don't stop inspiring me.

"Some things last"

I finally watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button".

What a way to start ending this year. And what a year it has been...

"Midnight Cowboy"

Those were the steps I needed to take in order to get right here where I am now.


Restarting myself and my engines was the wisest move I could have made. Today I'm whole again.

"Flashback"

Everything around me seems to paralyze me.

I'm seized by the choices I have to make in my life in order to have a life.


Am I destined to feel this void, day after day after day after day?