"A pint for me and one for you, say a toast with all who knew"

I have noticed a glimpse of misery in him but when I see him face to face, he smiles. And I smile.



What more could one want.

Happy holidays for everyone.

Music today:
Christmas carols
Death Cab For Cutie Brothers on a hotel bed
Feist The Water

"Fire Eyed Boy"

When I grow up, I will move to Toronto and marry Leslie Feist and live happily ever after.

Music today:
Broken Social Scene
The Organ

"Three is the loneliest number"

I think my head just might fall off.
To you my heart. And other tiny useless organs.

Music today:
Interpol
Klaxons

"You take your time coming over here"

I feel like a great deal of transformation would do some good.




I feel like a great deal of love making would do some good.

Music today:
Tegan and Sarah
CocoRosie
Goldfrapp
Melissa Etheridge The Weakness In Me

"You gave me hope amidst my sorrow"

Somehow you fall deeper. Can you find a way back to the surface? To that silly, deeply dear surface where everything is controlled by turbulence and yet... by those ridiculous boundaries?

I feel comfortable and relieved when I'm below that surface. And still: it is sometimes frustrating to go to sleep alone thinking that this is all you can be: braver than the most.



I really need a vacation.

Music today:
Everything that reminds me of the life before

"Every road is a ray of light"

Ex tempore.

That is how and when the most amazing things of my life happen. Now that the prospect of something is right there, the possibility of anything to happen, I feel exhausted.




And I hate it because last night was mind-blowing and so much better than I ever could have even dreamed of. And I really do want to hold on to that prospect of something wicked coming this way.


Do come this way.

Music today:
Coldplay Prospekt's March

"Lights go down"

"You gave me hope amidst my sorrow,
may it be tomorrow, that I can love again.
And in return for what I've borrowed
be with you tomorrow and until the end.

I know the road we're on is narrow
along comes tomorrow, we're gonna see the sun.
And with the wings of the first sparrow,
new light of tomorrow,
we're gonna be as one."


And just so you know: I feel so rich when I think about all my friends. Even if everything goes all wrong, we will have each other. It's funny how the concept of family changes when you grow and evolve.

"Kreuzberg"

"There is a wall that runs right through me.
Just like this city I will never be joined.
What is this love? Why can I never hold it?
Did it really run out in those strangers' bedrooms?

I have decided at 25 that something must change

Saturday night, in East Berlin:
we took the U-Bahn to the east side gallery
I was sure I'd found love with this one lying with me
Crying again in the Hauptbahnhof

After sex the bitter taste
Been fooled again, the search continues
Concerned mothers of the west: teach your sons, how to truly love."

"While you live it up I'm off to sleep"

I'm sorry if I can't make everything alright for everyone. I'm terribly sorry about that.

You can pick the music if it helps.

"Hot as a fever rattling bones"

In a dream of mine I had the ability to forget you.


I have never liked sleeping less than that night.

Music today:
Kings of Leon Sex On Fire
Arcade Fire Rebellion (Lies)
Kingston Wall

"You are the missing ingredient"

Why is it that when you have so much to do and so little time, it is only the most irrelevant stuff that actually bothers you the most?

And yes, I am talking about the most foolish thing in the world. The one that makes you lose control over everything for a brief moment of bliss.

"Vicky returned home to have her grand wedding to Doug. To the house they finally decided to settle in. And to lead the life she envisioned for herself before that summer in Barcelona. Cristina continued searching... certain only, of what she didn't want. "

Music today:
None

"Raindrops keep falling on my head"

"Meredith: What was I to you? The girl you screwed to get over being screwed?

Derek: You were like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me. It's all I know.



Meredith: It's not good enough."


Music today:
The Kills
Modest Mouse
PJ Harvey

"Take me somewhere nice"

I went to sleep and woke up between layers of ocean and sand and light. We had no need to peel them off because they held us with their gentle arms whispering truths that we had lost before we even had them. We watched each other without seeing each other and I knew there isn't a safe road to white shores and into the night anymore.



We lost something when we departed the last time.

Music today:
New Young Pony Club
The Prodigy
Mogwai

"If things go right we're meant to be"

We spread our wings.

That is what we do when there is a chance to try something new, to get out. To change something. To be anything but similar or dull.




I don't feel empty when you're gone.

Music today:
Sondre Lerche
CocoRosie
Kings of Convenience
Phantom Planet

"And the family eats the girl."

I have a weird life. That is all I have to say right now.

"When things happen to people, they radiate a light. Because they have a picture caught inside them. Because they were there and you weren't. And because you only got a piece. And because all you can do is shrink and blow up that one tiny piece."

The Tracey Fragments

Music today:
Kanye West Love Lockdown
Reino & The Rhinos
India.Arie
Corinne Bailey Rae

"Don't go down to Fannin' Street"

Today I spent the most wonderful afternoon so far. It was a lovely day with a shallow sun and quiet streets and a lot of potential to be brisk and frisky. I decided to take myself and all my endless thoughts outside for a walk to see the ocean and the beautiful buildings nearby. I saw them all with my past in present, everything I saw brought back many memories and thoughts that I had already forgotten a long time ago. It was overwhelming and very soothing. I even saw the singer of one of my favourite bands and it made me feel very infinite, like I was a part of some big secret. After a few weeks of nothing but running around the city, staying up late and hanging out with lot's of people, it was good, very good, to be alone and enjoy the autumn, the fall about to come.

Music today:
Scarlett Johansson
Interpol
Feist
Ultra Bra
The soundtrack of Lost In Translation